you know that you
you feel you deserve something big
that could be fulfilled by recognition but that
is not the best or most fulfilling thing.
it would be best if i truly knew it, within myself.
i do not need to be at the top of any linear scale,
i do not need to be at the top of any linear scale.
i know my worthiness, i know my worthiness
I CHOOSE.
i was given the opportunity to be what i am
i Am sure billie went thru a lot of shit
i want to be the best that I AM

that I AM
IAM
IAM
IAM

I Know you're real
I Know it 100%
I Know it 100%
Build up your strength
but understand their points
their references are different
you are writing separate stories
slow down your thoughts
take a second and some discipline
to focus on the moment
enjoy if you can
make the moment last
For it won't las long, till a
thought come barging to take away
your calm
But do not fear I will return,
the calm that now brings clarity
will forever burn
just tune yourself in
whenever you choose its right

yesterday i deleted my myspace account and my facebook account. i want to tell ppl i am not carrying a cell phone anymore and just to call my home number.

i told billie. she doesnt necessarily approve but she said if i really wanted to, that she would understand.
(im starting to really realize that the way you approach ppl, with your tone, attitude, words, can truly affect the out come of there response. more testing needed. but it nice to identify. )

i told billie that i would just tell all my friends that i wont have a phone anymore and then just use my moms cell phone- but solely for their phone calls. and nothing else. oh dear.

onward we go.