so things are really confirmed now.
i know its real
i know its real
too too too many coincidences.
trip saw numbers, now i see the numbers everywhere, the best is when i dont expect them.
i love it. it will only get better and stronger. it will only get stronger. it will only get stronger.

things are still kind of hard. it really hard living this society, going to school and all, and wanting so badly to just go away for a year. im at the point that i just need to time to think and meditate. its so hard to stay motivated for anything else. i just want to go into the forest and live there for a year, and then ill come back. its just so hard when those i love, dont understand. i cant tell them. they wont understand. but its not just them. it me.
i need to be stronger in my faith before i can tell them. Naturally, they will question and everything, the stories, my beliefs. i need to be sturdy with my beliefs to not anyone bring me down. I know its real now, i know it, but its not the time to tell everyone. sometime soon tho. the right time will come. the right time will come.

i hope to be aware. i hope to observer. i hope to learn. knowledge. purification. balence. harmony.

love love love love love love love love
magic magic magic magic magic

life is good.

life is like a video game. a BAD ASS VIDEO GAME. really, think of it as if all of us are players and we heard of this bad ass, virtual reality game, with great risks and great fun. wouldnt you want to be in it. Hell yes! and we are. but we forget its just a game. we are in the game, playing it.

i have to tell myself not to forget. when i feel myself feeling doubt or sadness, i have to remind myself of all that ive seen and all that i know. it helps alot.

i love going to billies and jared's place. its like a play house. i can play on drums for 30 mins, then jump on the bass, go shoot bow and arrows, look at jareds guns. i love it . very much fun. (*****thats not english, i dont know english, this is crazy. its either very fun or mucho fun , well not that either but WHATEVER!! SHUT UP!!)

i really like my buddhism class. the teach is awesome.
ive noticed teachers tend to look at me a lot. maybe thats because i give them the same attention.
ummm what else. i really like my comp lab job. its awesomeeee.
i work this shift. 8-2 mond, wed, 8-10 tues thurs 12-4 fri. i have weekends off. im glad im not working at marfreless anymore. that jo00b didnt make me smile.

i cant wait till i can sing and make music. that will be exhilerating. that will be fun fun fun fun. that will be so much fun to travel and perform. OHHHH SHITTTT. its going to happen. life is good. life is good. life is good.

lets see what comes out of your mouth, rather your hands, my lady.
frivolouus words meaningless talks, waste of times they are not for they teach all that is to be learned. fear not for the time is near to test your knowledge and the success you seek is here. life is a riddle for the players. play and you shall find. play and you shall find the secrets to life. all is well for the game is a game, and the game is the game.
can you hear me like the wind hears the willow . no one knows. its all the reaal, its all the facts. let it be mady. for its all here. now tell me something i didnt know. i didnt know. all the time is yours. all the house is in your name, so hold on tight the flight is tonight. the flight will give you sight . my life my life, you have the sight. play the game and you shall win. you win you win yoyu all win. invision invision invision invision. all the love all the love. oh jesus. let it come let it come let it come all the way from the town. tell me something i didnt know tell me something i dont know tell me something i dont know tell me something i dont know .tell me something i dont know. the stars have aligned and tonight you will see how the heavens love thee so, how the heavens await for you to show. come come come love. the time is here., no fear no fear no fear.
feel it feel it feel it feel it feel it feel it.
i wonder if anyone will read this. if you do, wow, thanks for sticking around for all of this. i probably would have given up a long time ago. write something if you read this. i dont need to know who you are but just to see if someone randomly happened to stumble upon my page.

hold on to the light you see. the light you see will hold the up for the stars know their way and today is the day they come your way. have you not realized the timing is right. the light is in sight the light is in sight. hold on hold on hold on it should come.

time time time time time lie lie lie lie lie beautiful beautiful beautiful lie.
thats a cool concept that in this game we chose to have the factors of time and gravity to challenge us.
its a challenge you seek
its a challenge you will find
it a challenge for your mind
its a challenge that will change your life
you will win you will win you will win you will win this game....it's yours.

christmas is coming .i like this time of year.

i love my family. i dont see them enough. time goes by way tooo ooooo quickly. days are flying by . flying by. flying by. lets not waste any time. productivity. :)