1-24-08

i want you no more,
i promise thisi time
i just dont want you anymore
no more
now no more
it's lifting, it's lifting
it liftining
no more
i fear no more
the sadness is going. i care no more.

9-7-07

do you feel pain so deep it makes you cry
do you understand all of them , all of them
so you cant blame them, why even try
so where do you go, you take in these razor words and pretend you dont feel the slash for the innocent, pray youstronger than the pray this friendship this love is stonger than the pain u recieve
pray to release them from their pain

so if ur out there one like me
may we be free to be free

you know that you
you feel you deserve something big
that could be fulfilled by recognition but that
is not the best or most fulfilling thing.
it would be best if i truly knew it, within myself.
i do not need to be at the top of any linear scale,
i do not need to be at the top of any linear scale.
i know my worthiness, i know my worthiness
I CHOOSE.
i was given the opportunity to be what i am
i Am sure billie went thru a lot of shit
i want to be the best that I AM

that I AM
IAM
IAM
IAM

I Know you're real
I Know it 100%
I Know it 100%
Build up your strength
but understand their points
their references are different
you are writing separate stories
slow down your thoughts
take a second and some discipline
to focus on the moment
enjoy if you can
make the moment last
For it won't las long, till a
thought come barging to take away
your calm
But do not fear I will return,
the calm that now brings clarity
will forever burn
just tune yourself in
whenever you choose its right

yesterday i deleted my myspace account and my facebook account. i want to tell ppl i am not carrying a cell phone anymore and just to call my home number.

i told billie. she doesnt necessarily approve but she said if i really wanted to, that she would understand.
(im starting to really realize that the way you approach ppl, with your tone, attitude, words, can truly affect the out come of there response. more testing needed. but it nice to identify. )

i told billie that i would just tell all my friends that i wont have a phone anymore and then just use my moms cell phone- but solely for their phone calls. and nothing else. oh dear.

onward we go.

i deleted most of my posts on myspace today.

just because.

here was the first one i wrote.

the rest are on my thumb drive.

i dont know why i felt the need to erase them . i dont want to drift away from my firends but i want to go somewhere. leave what i need to leave behind and go on and go on. it wil happen we have started to find a reason to move on. and the rest will come in do time just allow yourself to be happy and free in the moment . just allow yourself to be happy and free in the moment. with all outr love .

The I.Can.Do.It.Myself Syndrome, apparently, isn’t nice for others who care about you.

not what i expected. but, okay.

so ....if i think about it...???...okay

Yes, it is a problem, and it will be dealt with when the time is right.

At its own pace.

May there be peace and understanding till then.

Peace to all.

Weasel's Wisdom Includes:

• Stealth

• Cunning

• Ingenuity

• Revenge

• Keen observation

• Ability to see hidden reasons behind things

• Power of observation

• 

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HAnds in the AIr! hands in the air.