so ive been on this road trip

so ive been on this road trip. its been amazing. ive learned so much about myself. ive found something crazy cool spiritually. life is amazing but its hard. people make it hard, and when you just want to be free and live others have a way of weighing you down, with the best intentions in the world. let me specify.

so im on this US roadtrip. phenomenal. im following intuition and its leading me to wherever and im loving wherever i go. life is beautiful, but i hate the phone, and i wanted this to be a full getaway but i have to call home becuase the folks are worried. but bc im not planning and not following the conventional "safe" plan ppl worry and their worry brings me down. it affects me subconciously and i feel it. it really bothers me. and then my mom got sick from the worry and my sisters are pissing me off telling me that have to call home. anyways so i was getting really hurt and upset by this but i know why now. its because i know the way that i want to live my live so different from that of the people who now surround me that if i were to tell them, they would not be able to take it. so until i am 100 % sure footed on my feet, and in my life i have to lie to them. That really hurts. the fact that the way i want to live my life with no fear and just fun an free ( something that gives me so much joy and what i would like to share with others) will only lead to their disapproval. so the only way i can keep a relationship with my family now is if i lie to them. it makes me sad. life is changing and those who dont accept you will no longer have standing in my life to come. love will always be there but if people grow in different directions, what can you do but wish them the best.

i feel different. i feel like people are to caught up in the world. i think its just because ive been gone for so long but i really prefer just to talk about nature and animals. people might say, dont you have anything better to talk about?, but what else would i want to talk about. someone elses problems? sure if its to help you out but i dont want to dwell on mine thats for sure.

i just want to be around others who just want to live, love and laugh. no drama. no drama. well some is fun, but when its starts to get exaggerated, thats when it needs to end.

oh gosh. sometimes when i hangout with people, there problems seem so boring and meaningless. i guess thats what they think about when i talk about nothing. oh life is crazy .

somethings going to change. it has. it will . its the only thing that can happen. there's no turing back.


for this life of mine i wish ...
danger glazed with calm.
roadtrips off of intuition.
showers in the sunshine and the wind.
talks with myself.
more time in the woods
trampling my fears until i can laugh in their face
to be forever young.
conversations on how beautiful something is.
laughter.

the best vacation ive ever had.
many a town ive seen, on this lil trip of mine. many different faces and different lives. makes me thankful for mine, and makes me hopeful for the future.
i dont want to worry about things, why? there's no fun in it. i dont think ive met one person who doesnt think im a lil looney, but if they only really knew how weird this mind of mine can get.


i want to live my life for the fun of it. it crazy how for each different person, there are things that hold them back from what

i really dont know what to right about my trip.
i think it was the best trip of my life.
it was very introspective, and very unconventional, but im safe, im alive, and i feel great, but a little different. things are a little clearer. pressures are a little li

i dont know what to say.
nothing i say can really describe how amazing this trip was for me.
i really enjoy my own company, maybe a little too much. hehe
life is so crazy, scary, and amazing, and i can feel how worries weigh down on my emtions and my physical body. im not a fan of it.
life can be scary, dont fear it.
and when things work out, take a second to appreciate it.
life can be lonely, relish in it.
dont give a fuck what they say, dont give a fuck what they say, only you really know!!!!!!!
dont look back until your ready or you might lose your step.
worry less.
see the world as pictures.
imagine your life as a movie.
dont be afraid to smile. dont be afraid to cry. dont be afraid to live. dont be afraid to let go if the time has come.
i dont know where im going and that the exciting part about. i understand your concern but i like it this way and its staying for a while.

if i could give the best gift in the world it would be a shower in the sunshine and the feelingof a sunset in a box.

seems like life's a changin'.
sorry if im changing loved ones.
its a good thing, really.

hey hey now thank you.

i'm being tested constantly. it's hard at times, but they are good to me. i am able to release fears little by little. they are good to me. thank you. besitos.

late to work- started to freak out- but calmed my self with their help, got here. helped for move. all is good. all is good.


RELIANT K- MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING RIGHT


i hope my road trip is bad ass. i want it to be amazing. i have a feeling it wil be because i want it so bad and my eyes are tearing up now. i think thats a good sign. :)

i enjoy crying because of so much joy and awe of the world. its nice and fun.


Thank you Patrick, Steve, and i dont know your name but you know im talking to you, but i hope you can help me, if you see it fit.

:)